As you can tell from most of my journal entries, I am a fan of stream of consciousnesses. Frankly it takes much effort on my part to write anything let alone make it coherent. So please forgive my writing for now. It will be one of the signs that I am at a functioning level when my writing improves.
I have this running to-do list in which I haven't done anything on it. So tomorrow THURSDAY, I will try to accomplish my list no matter what.
I haven't felt like this in months. I know I am not manic. I am currently in a state where I can "power through" I think this is what it feels like to those people who don't have a mental illness but are experiencing episodic depression. Or it might be that my brain, which has been overly depressed since February this year, is tired of debilitating depression and is cycling into a mixed state. (Are you having enough of the mental psycho terminology? I can never get enough).
Damn it. I'm mad at myself. Just when I was making progress, I don't take a step backwards; I jump of the bridge (well, almost).
Frustration. Grrrrrrrrrr.
To Do List for Thursday (Perhaps sharing with the universe will help me be accountable)
1. Make a doctor's appt.
2. See if I am approved for health care insurance and for how long?
3. Go Shopping at Evil Ass Walmart
4. Post Office
5. Pay Some Bills
6. Walgreens---For what? I don't remember, it'll come to me or I will wander around the store until I remember.
That's all I will attempt for tomorrow
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