I have now resigned my self to my death. I have now come to the conclusion that the best method for suicide is to jump from a high place. In my local newspaper for the past month, a man jumped from an overpass and another man jumped from a parking garage. This has given me ideas about where I can jump. I want there to be no chance of survival. So jumping onto the concrete isn't enough. I think jumping from a high place to water is better because I can't swim. Even if I survived the fall, I can't survive the water. Drowning would be my backup. I don't think jumping off the local bridge would be a good idea because someone might see me and try to stop me. I have now researched other remote areas to jump from to a body of deep water that would be more appropriate.
I am enjoying my last days here on earth. I have regrets, but don't we all. And I wish I was stronger so I could have accomplish more with my life. But in the scope of life my life was significant. I feel at peace with my decision and I look forward to having no more pain.
