I am becoming more tenderhearted as I getting older. I just don't feel like being angry anymore. I suppose I can be returning to my true self. As a child I was very sensitive to others feelings and well being. I genuinely would enjoy making other people happy. After I was abused for so many years, I associated sunny, happy personalities with being someone taking advantage of you.
I am upset that the abuse gave me a twisted personality. I mourned for what I could have been. Now I am not "happy" but content with who I am now. I have seen the ugly side of humanity and survived. . . barely. It's time to experience the joyous part.
Sucks to have trust abused.
ReplyDeleteGood that you're working past negatives that have impacted you.