Recovering from a episode of major depression...

This blog shall document my struggle with a mental illness. I hope anyone that comes across it, will find inspiration to continue to live and live well. Be forewarned, if negative moods and actions affect how you feel or affect your well-being then don't read my blog. Otherwise all encouraging and carefully crafted criticisms are appreciated.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Suicide Letter

I committed suicide due to the overwhelming pain I have experienced for the last 24 years. I fell into a deep depression as a child and I have had few moments in my life where I was not battling its negative effects. I have become weary of living as a shell of a human being. I cannot fathom a time where I would be free from melancholy. I don't want to live like this for years to come. I want relief.

For clarification sake, my suicide was no one's fault. I could not find effective mental health treatment (obviously) and more importantly, the motivation to navigate the Mental Health System was lacking for me. Unfortunately, I was not able to be helped. The positive thing to remember is that I will no longer be suffering and I can truly Rest In Peace.

N.F.

1 comment:

  1. Uhm, ... hopefully at least by now you're feeling, or at least mostly feeling, significantly better.

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