Recovery. A New Approach.

I have lost most of material possessions. Who am I? I have lost things with no meaning. What do I find important? Love? Do I possess it or do i give it? No. Am I human? Barely.

How did I have nearly three years of suicide free thought? I kept so busy I didn't have time to think. What happens to the lazy and the non working? Thinking and change. I worked and I didn't think. I worked and ignored my despair. I had warnings. My last warning was when I was getting a physical in January and my doctor who I never been to before saw that I was treated for bipolar disorder. At that time I thought it was a misdiagnosis, now upon reflection I see that it was correct.

Back to the topic at hand. I need a plan to become and maintain stability. I need meds; particularly mood stabilizers. I need human real life contact. Support groups, religion, hobby/sports can do this. I should make my bucket list a goal to accomplish in the next ten years. I need to have detailed plans. A weekly plan, a monthly plan, a six month plan, a year plan, a five-year and ten year plan.

Side note: my mother upsets me. I feel powerless in her presence I hate that feeling.